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Happy If You Aren't

by Fastfade

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1.
For one day I wish that I could be in the centre of all your attention Cos in my bed I fall asleep with thoughts in my head that I’m better off dead Suck it up I learn to teach myself how to stay calm in these situations But once again Nothing seems to stop me from shaking it feels like I'm breaking And it's the Right time or am I too late now Wait around just to feel a connection Tension, pay no attention to panic thoughts filled with all the rejections I'm sick and refusing treatment think I'm becoming immune to the feeling. Of being so pathetic can't seem to give you a good enough reason For anything Feels like I'm outside looking in And I keep feeling more distant when I'm standing next to you And The worst place I could be is inside my own head Because I'm overthinking everything that I wish I did instead For one day I wish that I could be in the centre of all your attention Because in my bed I think of all those words that you said it replays in my head
2.
Time Stuck 02:53
Too stoned and too confused It aches to pay attention To what you say,it just sounds like noise to me You just thought maybe I’m better off dead Seems I can't help but lose at everything Time's stuck, going round in circles I'm stuck bending over backwards Found my way again, falling and I can't turn back tonight I'm waiting patiently As the hours overtake me I'll wait and see, becoming a casualty You just though maybe it’s all in my head. Seems I cant help but lose at everything.
3.
Idiot 02:06
You're sad again you're sad again And now you're on your own It's so much over nothing It's time to forget Suck it up one more time You're better off alone
4.
Weirdo 02:43
Choking out a half-assed apology One I might have used before Knowing that there's always an escape and I'm Here today could be gone tomorrow I'm getting bored and losing my interest I know, that I just can’t fit in Try to change but I'm feeling too comfortable I know I shouldn't be But I'm used to it by now Wish that I could change somehow Cos I can't keep falling backwards every time And I'm wondering how wish it all will end now Cos I can't keep on pretending Spend the time I'm spending hating people like you I think that I hit my head too hard again against this wall I keep to myself cos I can't stand the way That people fucking look at me Cos I'm only here to entertain my self and no one else So you can take your opinions and choke on it Cause your all fucking hypocrites There is nothing here for me I want everything for free Cos All this negativity Is Building up inside of me
5.
It all started when you first saw me look your way And I felt a feeling I can't even explain I wish I could take you back home and watch tv But my license expired and I lost my key So I start to think that this must be The worst thing that's happened to me Accepting the reality That I can't seem to be with you I've been so stupid And wasted so much time And I'm scared to tell you that you've been on my mind Because I'm sick of waiting To see you once a week And even then I get to scared to speak So I stare at you from across the room I know that you'll be leaving soon I'm trying so desperately But I can't seem to be with you I just want you here by my side Because there's nothing I want but you I just want you here by my side This might be the last time I try Because I can’t think when I’m with you
6.
Negative 03:15
It's just another day Same old problems dragging on and on Always a price to pay Knowing that there's always something wrong Taking what you need Biting on the only hand that feeds But now your lacking strength Lacking the strength to start over Now you're on your own No one to talk to It's just another week The same old tensions building up inside Reject with no respect You found your satisfaction once again Always misunderstood Always on the wrong side of the tracks And now you're losing ground It feels like everything is falling down I know what tomorrow brings This pain this ache in my brain This awkward emotion
7.
Sub Motive 01:04
Don't want your education I can educate myself I don't need people or society I'm fine all by myself Fuck this job I don't wanna waste my time I'm not a robot, a sellout I'm just an average guy I can think for myself I've got my own point of view I'm sick of all these assholes who try to tell me what to do These expectations can go fuck themselves sick of spending every day Like a book on the shelf And they will shut you up when you speak the truth We're just another brainwashed youth Take a look around It's nothing like your television It's all we ever knew But you're too dumb to make a decision Take a look around We're living under supervision Thinking it's freedom But they control all your decisions Living how they want us to And somehow we still think we're free
8.
Seatbelt 00:44
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9.
Blunt 02:36
There's no better me Just my own worst enemy Never know what to do Never really think things through and I Kicked myself today For something I should've done But I'll get used to it Why should I give a shit when It's something It's nothing I'm telling you we'll be just fine Believe me I've been there We'll find another way in time There's no better me I'm just full of apathy Never seem to put you first Things are just getting worse for me And I hate to be a pain But nothing ever feels the same Can't wait for the day, the day when I hear you say And every time I try to explain It gets fucked up And now I'm stuck It's just my luck
10.
Frontside 03:17
I just want to live But I'm tired of this shit My time is just spent trying to commit I don’t understand My problems and what it is when I'm growing up It's never like what I planned I can't find the fun In just about anything I stay in my room Lay down watch tv and I don't really care What's going on around me Going on around me I’ll drink tonight all on my own Makes things alright when I’m uptight I’ll say goodbye, and walk alone When I'm wrong everyone's in on it Who do I trust, who's gonna give a shit? My life just sucks, there isn't an end to it I'm always wrong and I'm pissed off with everything When I was young I had ambition inside of me Then years went by And replaced it with apathy And now my head is spinning constantly Spending my days just on this shelf Destined to hate everyone else Care about no one but my self It’s fucking up my mental health
11.
Passtime 03:13
One day I was walking down the street A random thought occurred to me It was about you I haven't seen you in so long and you said you'll never talk to me ever again But I hope things do Get better for you One day you’ll lose And I won’t be there for you Sometimes I wonder if you Ever wonder what I do And then I wonder if there’s someone sleeping next to you It's all a joke we laugh along Nothing's wrong we never think about it but this time It's gone too far the way things are Just one day has changed us for good It's a different side to you, a different side to what I thought I knew. You say it’s going nowhere I still persist and you don’t even care Sometimes I wonder if you Ever wonder what I do And then I wonder if there’s Someone sleeping next to you I thought of all my mistakes But it got me nowhere Cos I can’t help that I don’t care You never cared that much for me So many things we just don't understand And I get bored so easily So I'll just use my hand
12.
Head First 04:35
These days it seems I don't care anymore Look at it blindly and try to ignore These days in between Strung out on caffeine There's so many distractions I guess I was blind With all these problems still close behind Making sense of what don't make sense to me I guess I never learned a thing I'm outside always looking in The pressure builds inside of me And drowns me in anxiety We never really had a clue I understood but I never knew What it meant to be I guess you couldn't see I'm stuck here where I don't belong Everything just turns out wrong I know that I just let you down But it hurts now your not around Here we go again I'll try and play along Running out of time One again I'm wrong I never knew the reasons why All by myself again, I'll see you around It always sucks to say goodbye I'm getting used to it I'll see you around I'm selling myself short I wish I could say what I wanna say Selling myself short wish I could say That you're wrong and I don't get it Something's wrong and you won't admit That you're wrong
13.
Sink or Swim (free) 03:16
Flick the switch you tell me you're not listening Sounding echoes through your mind again becoming all you hear You try to walk away Everything’s coming down you turn up your soapbox and block it out It’s enough to shut you down but you still got reasons left for you to stay You stay in one place for so long Trying to keep your head above water Just dive in We’ll see if you’ll sink or swim now You see that you're the one that’s hid it for so long and I don’t wanna be a part of your life anymore, that is my choice. I’m not here to tell you anything but only that the things that you believe Will never put you over someone else I can do what I feel would make me look good I do what I think is right If that compromises your morals so be it And if that puts me on a platform Then I won’t look down If it makes you feel any better go on give it your best shot
14.
Slingshot (free) 04:07
I don't understand it A good thing comes along you buy and you brand it Something is going wrong I can't fucking stand it Your little false alarms You see it you demand it Its a lack of charm Don't blame it on someone else When you don't get what you want You're back for more again You know you can't pretend You don't know just what you are You'll find out one day Nothing's gonna change Decisions that you made Dealing with it every day But some things never change Cracks in the pavement My insecurities dealing with the danger of immaturity Things are getting stranger, its so unclear to me I'm never gonna change her, so ill just wait and see Enfield Pride: Get out the way I'm gonna say White trash occupied Enfield pride Spend another day at the arts cafe I think someone just died Enfield pride Full of road men , Dead end business, Think it's time we burnt it down (To the ground) Get out the way I'm gonna say My hat's still on the monument Enfield pride

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Debut 14-track album.

"This is one for the snotty-nosed and broken-hearted – fourteen tracks of progressive pop punk blending the best of those great bands we’re all so comfortable with under the covers, but when it comes to date-night, “Yeah, they were good until Dookie came out.” Relax. Fastfade is all “Netflix and chill.” No reason to be antsy. These are the golden daze. Backing vocals are on point throughout, with moments of power-pop undertones reminding us that skateboarders get to have friendships and girlfriends too" - Dying Scene

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released December 14, 2018

Guitar - Ryan Mansell
Bass - Joe Papworth
Drums - Jake Marshall

Engineered by Sam Papworth, Alessandro Cogolo & Rich Alexander
Produced by Mark Bell

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Fastfade London, UK

Tight snares and crappy lyrics, london skate punk since 2015.

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